And again...

Hey, decided to have a little catch up blog post, God, I must say its been a while.

But to start, I'm just going to say that things are finally looking up for me, Life is good, my friends are true and totally awesome and I couldn't ask for anything else (except for more money, buttt its the recession, so I'll let it slide). College is win, not because of the work, but because of the people I see there, College is way more relaxed than Sixth Form, especially since I didn't get along with 3/4 of the people in Whitley High, because most of them were fags. but ah well.....

What I did notice that changed the most was the amount of friends I've gotten in such a short amount of time, and how much we have in common. The people I hang with all know and respect who I am and how I feel, and thats what I call friendship, its the true gap in my life that I was searching for. Thank God I found it.

I've met loads of nice lovely people in College, even though I'm on my second year now, doing a National BTEC Diploma in Media and Games Design, the people are where its at for me. some old and new faces, all friendly and welcoming. really nice ^-^ Although I swear some of the teachers have been taking a few things we shouldn't speak of! ;)

But anyway, the whole situation with 'Whos my best friend' is something thats always ended up getting me into trouble, because it'll always end up with someone taking it the wrong way and leading an army of haters to 'hate' me. past experiences, not going into that.

But Bam is considerably my best friend right now, ever since I met him in the first year of College, he's been hilarious, the gags we played, when we hang out, its always a fucking riot. always makes me smile XD

Well, I'll post again when something interesting happens, this is just to say I'm still alive and VERY well ^^

Hallelujah! Life is gooood!

(I'll never say that again)

Rawrgh

Had Bagel and Shadow sleep yesterday meaning that my room smells :P

Monday was fun, we played pool for like ages and we wandered around generally, which usually turns out to be fun for us (yes, we are easily pleased lol)

We are gonna make this a regular weekend thing i reckon, pool is fun and should be played more, so i can own people at it ;D

DIDN'T get that thing i wanted because i was short £10, bahhhhh now i'll have to wait until i can be bothered to go to town again xD

Oh well, I am rather happy now, go me

Ho hum...

Well, today was quite a lazy day for me, which is really what i needed after all the college work i had to cram into on Friday, so I'm now refreshed and ready for tomorrow which should be awesome :)

Also, i got the money i needed today for that certain thing I've been wanting, which i'll hopefully pick up tomorrow while I'm out ^_^ woohoo! finally things are going good for me :D

Maybe I'll pop in and see other peoples on tuesday too, try and get out of the house more, because once summer hits, i wanna be in good contact with everyone, so we can have a blast!

Wow...just Wow

Today...was the one of the best days I've had for the last 2 years. I felt Happy and relieved that people out there are still willing to accept me and take me in as their good friend, Bam and Bagel helpt me alot today. and for once, i felt like i fit in, something i hardly ever feel when im around people. the people i hung with were happy and hyper, i made some new friends, and whats more, Monday is Bagels Birthday and we're gonna go out and have fun again! I can't wait!

I don't know how to describe the happiness I'm feeling right now, With whats happened today, I can well and truly say that i will move on from whats happened, I have everything i need now already beside me and willing to help me in whatever way they can, and i will help them

Thank you Bagel
Thank you Bam

You really are very good friends :D

Woooo

Got one more period of college before i'm home free for half term, need to catch up on sleep after pulling countless all-nighters to get this done. then once i get back, just another week and then it'll be summer time for me :) I was looking forward to Summer :D until like all my friends abandoned me, oh well, it'll still be good, get my PC game stock up and sleeeeep as much as i want ;)

I've decided that its best for everyone if i moved on from this, all i'm doing is embarassing myself and making myself look like a total idiot. so I've decided to start to interact with better people, even though that won't go so well, I'll still give it a shot.

Looking Forward to Monday especially, My friends bday and were gonna hang and have a blast!
Hopefully this weekend should clear my mind and i will have moved on by Monday :)
I just don't want to play into everyones mind games anymore

Dude...

Tomorrow will either be very relieving or one of the worst days of college ever, it could go either way depending on how i do on this website I'm designing, and considering they haven't helped at all, it could go one way or the other (Which reminds me of a teacher back in Whitley High...)

I just don't understand his hatred for me, I can't get it out of my head because i just don't understand where he can pull this from, whats more, hes probably told everyone about it and they all agree with him, leaving me in the dark..as usual...god i hate people sometimes..all i want are nice friends that i can trust, and wont abandon me because i annoy them over the simplest things. its times like this in which i honest to god feel so alone and out of place in the world.

Left4Dead is a certainty however college goes, something to look forward to and alot of stress relief by killing stuff (Yes i am weird)

Actually i might contact him this weekend, after all, i hardly ever see him because of how my friends hate him so much, but hes always been there for me, so i deserve to show him some respect. maybe we can go see a film or something. hopefully it should be good this weekend

Starting again

Hey, I'm gonna start blogging again because i feel like expressing myself to..well...myself. so you'll see alot more from me here.

Today was crap. I have a load of work to catch up on and handed in fully completed for this friday and he didn't really help today. all he did was act childish and i hate it when he does that. He nearly got me in big trouble too, you know, I know he does it because he thinks its funny and it is to an extent, but not when it involves me and leaving the course...Hmmmmm

I finally settled things with him too (Someone else) Well, if you count settled as express my opinion and ending this in me being a coward, then yes, its settled. I've agreed to play his hate game, and take it as it comes. I don't really care if people bitch about me behind my back anymore, its become too common to actually worry about it. Well, hes a nice guy deep down, i know he his, he just doesn't want to get involved with me anymore, which i can understand really, who would want to get involved with me and stay involved. He was a damn good friend too, its a big loss for me, but not such a big loss for him. Downer huh?

I'm starting to doubt his trust too (Someone else), alot of people have been saying things about him thats made me wonder whether hes actually on my side or not, when you think about it realistically in my viewpoint, its obvious that he has something against me deep down. Hes expressed that opinion several times, but has always kept his real thoughts about people hidden, and from what i hear, ends up telling lies.

Might go and get Left4Dead this weekend, fancy a change of tune for my gaming expertise and something to squee over in the break. Can't wait to tear people apart!

My Dad texted me saying he wants to meet me after 7 years too...but i'm not sure if i want to see him anymore, i mean....i don't even remember him much.